When life seems to hit the fan and fall apart, He wants us to talk to Him first, before doing anything else. Scripture says that He is a very present help in time of trouble. Turning to Him, orienting our hearts towards Him, opens the door for Him working on our behalf, and in so doing...relying on Him...builds our faith. Going to the place that doesn't change, (God's presence), causes things in us, to change.
We think it's okay to believe, as long as it doesn't interfere with the way we act, the way we think, the way we treat people. If we dare to really think about what we believe, it messes with us. It makes us step outside of our boundaries and the places where we feel safe. It changes us and it changes how we live. Most of us assume that when things get messy, we have stepped outside of faith and are walking in places where we shouldn't be. But God calls us to be uncomfortable, to be stretched, to be challenged.
Sometimes, I wake up in the morning and think, "God, can I tackle this again today? Do I want to engage in the messiness of where you are taking me?". When I have these doubts, I know that He understands why I have them and He isn't offended. But He wants me to repent of my doubt and to allow Him to be at work in me.
"God, the Master, The Holy of Israel, has this solemn counsel: “Your salvation requires you to turn back to me and stop your silly efforts to save yourselves. Your strength will come from settling down in complete dependence on me." — Isaiah 30:15 Did you catch that? Settle down in complete dependence! Faith is messy and faith is hard, but we have His instruction to settle down and depend on Him. That's where I want to be!
No matter if God is leading me through a place that is challenging or if life is throwing me curve balls, I want to want to step out in faith, walk through the messiness, depending on Him. I don't want to miss out on a life of meaning and purpose, just because I'm afraid to let go and let God!
From His Lap,