Are you ever overtaken by fear? I have a sleeping disorder and there have been times when I worried about something so much that I literally didn't sleep for days. I could hone in on and dwell on problems and get myself so worked up that I couldn't even obtain enough peace to fall asleep. So I would just lay there and grind my teeth until little pieces of them broke off in my mouth. As a mom, for me, fear and anxiety over my children has probably been the hardest obstacle to overcome.
I have six children and I never seemed to have those types of fears when they were young, but as they grew into their teens and started making their own decisions, there were times that I actually became paralyzed with fear; fear that they were hanging out with the wrong people, fear that they would drink and drive, fear that they would be involved in an accident...probably all normal fears. But I let them overtake and control me.
There have been a couple of times in my adult like when our finances were so meager that my fear would make me unable to talk or think sensibly about a solution. What drives us to have fear like that? Is it pride that we won't look so successful as parents, as breadwinners, as whatever? Is it a lack of ability to lay our cares at the foot of the cross and leave them there? Is it a trust issue? I don't know the answer but I do know that the devil knows if he can get us in that kind of fear, we are worthless to do any good or constructive thing to help ourselves and others.
Fear is not even a reasonable emotion...because it solves nothing. It has no good purpose and it leaves us in worse condition than if we did not have it. I'm not speaking about concern or conscientiously concentrating on a problem. I'm talking about a fear that grips you in the gut and keeps you from moving out and away from a problem. Fear holds us back and squelches hope and faith. It does not lead to a solution for the thing we fear.
|Sitting on my Dad's lap|
From His Lap,