My heart's desire is for you to realize how valuable and precious you are, to know that you are a dream of God come true. While raising six children, I have had to depend on the Lord to give me certain nuggets of truth and insights into being a child of God. I would love to share these nuggets with you, hopefully bringing you closer to Him and a life filled with joy and peace.
Sitting here, this evening, I'm surrounded my my mom's dining room furniture, her old console stereo and all of her albums. Let's see...there's Herb Albert's Tiajuana Brass, Frank Sinatra, Barbra Streisand, Ray Charles, every musical you could think of and dozens of other records. Let me say right away that I'm not sad, not depressed; just nostalgic.
Some days, I need a hug from Mom and the only way for me to get one is to immerse myself in her things and her music. It's very comforting and familiar there. It takes me back to all those Saturdays (cleaning day at our house), when she would blare the stereo and sing at the top of her lungs as we all did our chores. I can still see her in her bandana and flannel shirt to keep warm.
It's nice to be able to visit those comforting days in my past and catch glimpses of faces and places that are frozen in time just for me. It's a bit of rest and rejuvenation. I often catch myself smiling softly as if to acknowlegde that they are still here. I don't stay there long and I don't wallow in self pity over the times and the people who are gone from my life. I realize that life is meant to be lived in the Now, not in the past and not in the future. But it sure is nice to visit and reminisce over what was.