Monday, September 28, 2009

Old Records and Memories

Sitting here, this evening, I'm surrounded my my mom's dining room furniture, her old console stereo and all of her albums. Let's see...there's Herb Albert's Tiajuana Brass, Frank Sinatra, Barbra Streisand, Ray Charles, every musical you could think of and dozens of other records. Let me say right away that I'm not sad, not depressed; just nostalgic.

Some days, I need a hug from Mom and the only way for me to get one is to immerse myself in her things and her music. It's very comforting and familiar there. It takes me back to all those Saturdays (cleaning day at our house), when she would blare the stereo and sing at the top of her lungs as we all did our chores. I can still see her in her bandana and flannel shirt to keep warm.

It's nice to be able to visit those comforting days in my past and catch glimpses of faces and places that are frozen in time just for me. It's a bit of rest and rejuvenation. I often catch myself smiling softly as if to acknowlegde that they are still here. I don't stay there long and I don't wallow in self pity over the times and the people who are gone from my life. I realize that life is meant to be lived in the Now, not in the past and not in the future. But it sure is nice to visit and reminisce over what was.

I'm just about ready to get back to reality now and start some laundry. Oh yeah...I think I can smell Mom's Nestle's Toll House cookies baking...maybe the laundry can wait just a little longer! Thanks, Mom.


  1. Erin, you know I have never read one of your blogs before. I always delete the email notice and go on about my day. Today for some reason I opened it and read it. As I sat in my office with my eyes closed I found myself running through our house in BenFranklin laughing and playing with our whole family. I could feel me laying in moms lap on that ugly green couch and her rubbing my back and her telling me how much she loved me. I could feel her arms around me. I miss her so much. Thank you for your post I needed that time with her.

    Love your brother

  2. This is precious! It took me back to a lovely, innocent time in life when I was a child and mom could make all things better simply with a hug or a kiss! The older that my mom gets, the more I find myself looking back to the times when she was my age and I was a little girl! Thanks for this!

  3. Erin,
    Thanks for this. It is soo nice that something can take us right to the ones we love the most! love that about their things and memories.

    You are always such a blessing on twitter and I must say here as well.

    Thanks for allowing us to run free in our hearts with those that we just miss sometimes!!

    I am a daddy's girl, but am thankful to have grown up to be my mom. It's been 7 years since my dad passed on. I'm so glad to still have my mom.


  4. Thank you for those kind words, Marie. I'm so glad you wonderful memories of your dad! It's nice to visit those memories, isn't it? You are a blessing and I appreciate all of your encouragement on twitter!
    (((HUGS))) Erin

  5. Erin, thanks for sharing. I actually got teared up. It reminded me of my mom so much but also my grandma. She had the big console and me and my twin brother had many a "dances" in her living room with grandpa. Oh good times. Nostalgic like you said. Great memories. Tx for sharing! if I can just find a record player so I can play my vinyls. :>


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